First Love

What do you remember about your first love? What was special about the person you were attracted to? How did you act around him or her? Was your interest reciprocated? In your journal, write about the experience.

• My first crush (not love, since it was not as serious) is one of the memories that I am able to recall more clearly compared to other memories from my elementary times, though it has become blurry and vague after such a long time. I do not remember what age I was. I guess I was about twelve or thirteen, somewhere along those lines. I do not remember what he looked like. But I do remember that he was one of the guys that I considered good looking then. And I do remember that he was a lot older than me, probably about three to four years old (though this may not be considered old by some people, at that time, it was for me). This person that I had a crush on was popular. During those times, I was a very unsociable and pretty isolated person. Therefore, I did not have any interaction with him, except for when we were on the school bus. Even then, we didn't talk much; it was only greetings. I guess the only reason I was attracted to him was because of his appearance, since I didn't know his personality that well, or maybe even at all. When I look back at it, my crush was more of a silly infatuation of a silly girl, who was naive and still romanticized. I can say this because I remember that the only time I every think about him, is when I see him; he wasn't someone who was so important to me, and even if I see him and am around him, I never react much. My heart would only jump a little, then return to its normal rhythm. The crush faded away with time, and we have never been anything more than strangers.